A Moment of Reflection...

Hello all,

I know that it has been a while since my last post, but with school, the mister, work and the new season of Scandal starting :), time has just been going ever so quickly.  So let me just get into what is on my spirit.

So yesterday, I celebrated my 29th birthday again (I liked that age, so I'm going to stick with it for a while. lol) and I actually had a very amazing day/weekend. Aside from the normal celebrating and shot drinking, I took some time to reflect on where I've been, where I am and where I'm going in my life. I also came to some startling (and not so startling) realizations about myself. Aside from relearning everything that I mentioned here, I'll share with you the outcome of my day of reflection.

People who lack the clarity, courage, or determination to follow their own dreams will often find ways to discourage yours.

This is very true. I used to date this guy that did not have any type of drive or ambition and he was happy with were he was in his life. For the most part, there is really nothing wrong with this  and I am certainly not judging him, however, he didn't see a need to strive for something better. Because he didn't see this need for himself, he didn't understand my need for me. It is a wonderful thing to be happy with where you are in life, but you should never become complacent because there is always a higher level to aim for.


For those who confuse you, recognize that their confusion is theirs and your clarity is yours.

This was particularly enlightening for me, not so much because I wasn't aware of it, but moreso because of how I perceive my dealings with others. I had a friend, or acquaintance of such, that never understood (and still doesn't understand) why I kept going back to school for advanced degrees. They were like, "Don't you get tired of school?" To me that translated into, "Don't you get tired of educating yourself'?" To no surprise, they were met with a resounding. "NO!"  They were confused about the fact that my desire to continuously educate myself is directly related to the various ways that I validate myself, personally.  To me, this was not for them to understand and that is why they still do not.

What you are, and who you are should provide greater clarity about where you have been and where you are headed.

Who am I? A child of God. What am I? A strong, educated, inspired Black woman who is destined for greatness and driven by purpose. Of this, I am clear and sure. My journey to my destiny began at my birth and will take me as far as I am willing to push myself. I am that I am!

There are times in relationships, when we mess up. In spite of our best intentions, we do others wrong. Our jealousy makes us feel inferior. Our own wounds cause us to act irrationally. Our insecurities lead us to say hurtful things.

One thing that I find myself doing in my current relationship is punishing him for the things that went wrong in my last relationship. Certain insecurities that were present in my previous relationship traveled to this one. Not because of anything that he does or does not do, but because I haven't let go of my past. I don't think that he realizes this because he hasn't said anything. I know that he's a good man because any other man would have walked away. I'm getting better with this daily as I do not want to lose a good man because of the issues of a bad one.

I will never apologize for my feelings because truth doesn’t need regret. However, I will apologize for not communicating love in the way my loved ones feel that word should be defined and expressed.

Being apologetic for your true feelings is a sure fire way of ensuring that you will not ever be taken seriously by anyone. Stand firm on your principles and be bold with your beliefs. However, you should be sure that you are expressing yourself in a respectful manner, especially to those you love and love you.

I would rather be calm and focused, than irrational and emotional.

I have always been one to have a level head. I see no need to do a lot of screaming and yelling to get my point across. If you can't get it with me speaking calmly, then you probably aren't going to get it if I yell. Sadly, everyone doesn't get this.

My tolerance for ignorance and immaturity in adults is finally at zero.

This does not need any explanation. Grow up!

So as you can see, I did quite a bit of reflecting. This is good for me considering that there was a lot of 1800 Tequila clouding my thoughts lol. I normally do this kind of thing on New Years Day of each year, but yesterday seemed like a good day for reflection as it was rainy and dreary out and I had the day off. Anywho, I hope that you all can take something from my reflection into your own journey. If I can touch your spirit, then I have done a good thing.


Miracles and Blessings,

TL